please ReMeMBeR Me!

Finally...relief!...we're together again! When separated for so long and 4 months is long for me... you realize and start thinking of the many men and women that are serving our country and who are separated from their families for months, if not years! Oh, how my heart aches for them! Unlike some of these families, my mind and heart was constantly reminded and reassured knowing that I would see my husband again. I am so grateful for those who sacrifice their time, families and and lives for my freedom!!
Being born and raised in Utah has been wonderful!! When people say "we're sheltered" well, they are right. What a drastic change to move from "naive" Utah to "watch out" California ! Gas is $3.42, you share washers/dryers, there's no hangin' out at Walkers :) and I feel like the minority! But, count my blessings!!!...Josh is in school and enjoying every second! His classmate "buddies" have been angels! I can't thank them enough for looking out for him and making sure he's taken care of!
Leaving home really hit hard when we got our news from the UofU. Our unified decision to stay and proceed with in-vitro if "Yes" or pack up and leave if "No" came pouring down on me like a hale storm! Not only did my heart get hit and bruised all over again, I knew that my 2 weeks would come soon and "Please Remember Me" was all I could think about! The water works began before I even said Hi to any of my "patients"! Oh, there are so, so many I will miss!! I never knew it would be that hard to leave WORK!! Come on!...it's work for cryin' out loud!!! I have grown to love and admire not only those whom I worked with, but those people and lives that changed my life!! I watched new born babies grow from visit to visit, miracles happen within minutes and also years!...And I watched some of my best friends grow older and pass on to a much better place! These people who I call friends and family will always be in my heart and thoughts...ALWAYS! If only I could thank each and every one of them for the difference they have made in my life!! My last request to them..."Please Remember Me"! I love and miss all of you!

WHaT aM i DoiNG????

Do I know how to work a blog???...NO! This is my trial blog, so we'll see how it goes :) I just wanted to write some thoughts down , wait...blog it. :) So much has happened the past week, months, well, wait...we'll just say years! Josh just recently had his appendix removed, and YES... he decided that a day could not be missed from school/study and was present the same morning he was released from the hospital. He sure heard IT from his Professor!! It's a good thing he already has "family" in Cali. looking after him, because he doesn't listen to his wife sometimes. This does show his determination (as well as stubbornness) to do well in school!!...there's almost nothing worth losing a day of education!...it is that important to him! He is doing much better now, just a little sore of course.

Well, after spending months apart from each other (pending children) since our move to Cali. in August has been hard! But, our answer for in-vitro (after an overwhelming and acceptance of YES!) came quick. Waiting patiently for years to have a family of our own has been extremely difficult for the two of us (especially emotional me!), and our final answer was devastating and heartbreaking!! Although life throws curve balls and "miracles"..... yet taken away, our answer was accepted, just so we could be together again!!! I can say through many experiences that...miracles DO happen! And "distance does make the heart grow fonder!"...even if you already think the world of your husband!!!! Like I said before...we're still keeping our fingers crossed!! We just keep praying for another "miracle" to happen!!!!!!!! :)

-----ok, I think I'm just a little computer illiterate!!!...it's hard posting these things!! I guess I'll get the hang of it...hopefully! :)