Bittersweet memories

Oh, I am horrible at keeping a "journal"! Whether it's writing thoughts and memories down on paper or typing it up.... it just doesn't happen! But!... if you gather all of my post-it notes, it might turn out to be a pretty entertaining journey! What can I say other than... I really do have good intentions!
Well, this time of year certainly brings back some extremely exciting news and heart-breaking memories!  Our first exciting news was Josh being accepted to USC Dental School!... his dream come true!  Then news of being accepted for an in-vitro miracle program.... Another dream come true!!!!  We were then denied a month later of our chance for children because of us continuing education.  I still don't get it!... but it was definitely one of the most emotional rollercoasters in my life!  There are just some experiences in life that seem to still carry on in your heart, whether good or bad. I just hope that through all of mine I will have learned sincere patience, faith and love that's truly unconditional!
I believe I have "broken heart syndrome"... LOL! No!... really though, I would say that wanting something so badly that is part of life, creation and God's plan, is... and should be a normal feeling and want... yeah?! So, it's only normal for my heart to continually and truly ache for children!
I can only say Thank You to family and friends (especially of lately...Kindra) that have let me love on their kiddos! And... how blessed I feel to be a Primary teacher, that does not only learn more from the children, but I also get to feel their warm, sweet spirits. While sitting in Sharing Time, one of my kids loves to come sit on my lap. While we were sitting in a circle talking about the Holy Ghost, she grabbed my hands and wrapped my arms around her. She then said after a moment, "Sis. Whiteley is like a blanket.... she makes me feel warm like the Holy Ghost! " Wow!... it took all I had to hold in the hydrant! Oh, how I love each one of them dearly! If my joy of kids is not meant for this life, then it will be plentiful in the next!!
So!... 3 yrs ago, Josh got accepted to DDS school!!... YAY!!  I honestly can't believe that Josh is in his senior freakin' year now! It kinda makes me feel like we're seniors in HS for some reason!! ;) How time passes by... like the blink of an eye, eh?!!!! He has worked so so hard and has been so diligent and dedicated to not only his education, but to me as well! I, just.... can't even express how proud I am of him!! He has pushed himself beyond expectations and limits required! He is so compassionate with not only his work, but with his warm embracing love towards me and many others! If life leaves us only with each other.... I would still be the LUCKIEST woman ever!!

Thought of the Day:
Be Thankful.....

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary
Because it means you've made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are
also thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles
and they can become your blessings.
~ AU ~