Bittersweet memories

Oh, I am horrible at keeping a "journal"! Whether it's writing thoughts and memories down on paper or typing it up.... it just doesn't happen! But!... if you gather all of my post-it notes, it might turn out to be a pretty entertaining journey! What can I say other than... I really do have good intentions!
Well, this time of year certainly brings back some extremely exciting news and heart-breaking memories!  Our first exciting news was Josh being accepted to USC Dental School!... his dream come true!  Then news of being accepted for an in-vitro miracle program.... Another dream come true!!!!  We were then denied a month later of our chance for children because of us continuing education.  I still don't get it!... but it was definitely one of the most emotional rollercoasters in my life!  There are just some experiences in life that seem to still carry on in your heart, whether good or bad. I just hope that through all of mine I will have learned sincere patience, faith and love that's truly unconditional!
I believe I have "broken heart syndrome"... LOL! No!... really though, I would say that wanting something so badly that is part of life, creation and God's plan, is... and should be a normal feeling and want... yeah?! So, it's only normal for my heart to continually and truly ache for children!
I can only say Thank You to family and friends (especially of lately...Kindra) that have let me love on their kiddos! And... how blessed I feel to be a Primary teacher, that does not only learn more from the children, but I also get to feel their warm, sweet spirits. While sitting in Sharing Time, one of my kids loves to come sit on my lap. While we were sitting in a circle talking about the Holy Ghost, she grabbed my hands and wrapped my arms around her. She then said after a moment, "Sis. Whiteley is like a blanket.... she makes me feel warm like the Holy Ghost! " Wow!... it took all I had to hold in the hydrant! Oh, how I love each one of them dearly! If my joy of kids is not meant for this life, then it will be plentiful in the next!!
So!... 3 yrs ago, Josh got accepted to DDS school!!... YAY!!  I honestly can't believe that Josh is in his senior freakin' year now! It kinda makes me feel like we're seniors in HS for some reason!! ;) How time passes by... like the blink of an eye, eh?!!!! He has worked so so hard and has been so diligent and dedicated to not only his education, but to me as well! I, just.... can't even express how proud I am of him!! He has pushed himself beyond expectations and limits required! He is so compassionate with not only his work, but with his warm embracing love towards me and many others! If life leaves us only with each other.... I would still be the LUCKIEST woman ever!!

Thought of the Day:
Be Thankful.....

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary
Because it means you've made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are
also thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles
and they can become your blessings.
~ AU ~

We found!.....

JOSH'S TWIN!!
A while back when American Idol started again, I'd have a friend here and there call and say, "Nat, have you seen American Idol?... There's a guy on there that looks just like Josh!!" I just thought to myself... yeah, yeah... so some guy has a few similar charachteristics as Josh. Well, my sis called me today and said the SAME THING!!! So, I'm like OK!... I'll get on my comp and see who this Lee Dewyze is!! OH MY!!!!..... IDENTICAL.... SCARY.... CRAZY... TWIN... WOWZERS!!! His lips, nose, eyes and even some of his personality... shy guy, humble, LOVING! "I love you guys... I love you all!!" were his remarks after he won AI. So!... there you have it! Josh's twin is Lee Dewyze!! 
I don't get goose-bumps very often!... but him singing this song does the job!  He's pretty amazing!... but, NOBODY beats my hubby! :)



Thought of the day:
“There's no half-singing in the shower, you're either a rock star or an opera diva.” ~JG

Catchin' Up

Life has been not only been crazy, but... crazy busy!  My motivation went from nothing to rockin' out at a concert, going to a wonderful and dear friend's first baby shower....

Driving miles to get some squeezes and.... get my first pedi!  Watching some Real soccer w/friends and... lots of peanuts! :)  Missing my sweet hubby while he was drilling on teeth in Panama and fishing in Flaming Gorge!!!  And doing what I love to do as a hobby.... take photos of sweet, darling, adorable, lil' loveable kiddos! 

                              

       

                                                

       

    

        

             

                

Thought of the day:
“I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.” ~CR

Need Motivation!!

For some odd reason, my motivation and ambition to do anything is completely LOST when my sweet love is not around!! Honestly, I not only become very lonesome!... but dead to the world!... a hermit... emotional... a lil' depressed! My heart aches for him and the undconditional love he constantly expresses, that without him... I'M NOTHING!!!... just a blob of nothing! ;) :)
So, my apologies for not posting anything new and some great experiences I've (and we) had lately.
My dear LOVE can't be expressed enough to this amazingly wonderful and loving man that came into my life years ago... just lil' kiddos and good friends! He was such a blessing in difficult times throughout my early years and was an answer to my prayers years after!!! I'll NEVER forget that day... that inspiring feeling and knowledge that he was the one for me!!
I WILL post soon for my own sake!!.... but for now, I'm on my way to LAX to pick up my sweet love!!! Whaaaa Whooooo!!! :) :) :) All SMILES!!!! :)

Thought of the day:
"Love is the motivating principle by which the Lord leads us along the way towards becoming like Him, our perfect example. Our way of life, hour by hour, must be filled with the love of God and love for others."
~HBE

Where's Waldo?

Do ya ever feel like your lil' world is so jampacked with craziness that you can't be found... kinda like "Where's Waldo"??!  Well, that's like a daily feeling for me!  Anywho... I've been trying to keep up on my blog for personal reasons, such as... it's like a journal of our lives.  When my mind needs a release and Josh isn't around to listen... it's my outlet!  Yay for Josh... he's saved from my rambling! 

Yeah, I wish I was a top notch blogger like my friend Brittany who is so amazing at sharing her daily thoughts or routines and exciting events!  Which btw, we just got back from sharing some time with their cute lil' family and newborn baby boy, Carson!  Oh!!!.... how darling is he?!!!  Yep!... he's a keeper!  Wish he was mine along with her lil' Paige!  Yeah!... I want both of em'! :)  Can I PLEASE have them Britt????!! ;) :)

So!... my intentions are good!  I will be sharing some footage of the past few months that's saved with photos and wonderful memories!  This will be done while I'm by my lonesome, since Josh is taking off to Panama for nearly 2 weeks for the yearly Ayuda (free clinic) trip.  I'm so so thrilled for him!  Oh, and that will more exciting news to share! 

Thought of the day:
“Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish.” ~JJ